The One about Acceptance

Did you ever think that you’re worth nothing? that everything that is happening to you is all wrong? did you ever feel that you’re useless and your weak and easily broken?

life is like that, most of the time, we fall down, get hurt, and feel inferior. but we should try to stand up, stand tall, and correct what we have done before. life maybe unfair, but did you ever think about other people? people who are born with disabilities. people who lives like there is no hope anymore. the blind, the mentally handicapped, the mute, the deaf.

did you ever think how they feel for themselves?

we should be thankful for what we have, life is unfair, that’s a fact. but we must look at it in another way. people with disabilities try their best to do better, why? so they can be accepted by the people. so that they won’t be discriminated and pushed aside.

i remember the story of Ms. Roselle Ambubuyog, the1st Filipina visually-impaired summa cum laude graduate of the Ateneo de Manila University (2001). She refused to go to handicap school because she believes that she is just like anybody else. She went to school, read braille textbooks and eventually, she graduated Summa Cum Laude.

“All of us have our own disabilities. Mine is more obvious. I can represent what it means to go beyond one’s limitations with determination, perseverance, the help of others, and the grace of God.”
- Roselle Ambubuyog

here is another story about being able to accept who you are. being able to see that you can stand up if you fall. even if we fail, we must try, and try, and try. because eventually, we will be able to stand again. and the scars that we obtain from trying, let it be a reminder that we can stand up, no matter how hard and painful it might be.

Here is a story of Nick Vujicic, he has no arms or legs but has come to terms with his lot in life. Here’s an inspirational speech that he delivered. simple, yet heart felt.

Are You Going to Finish Strong?

think | reflect | pray

The one about letting go.

sorry i haven’t been updating much. school’s been a real pain. seriously. quizzes, exams, projects, laboratory experiments, even unbearable professors. ugh! makes my head throb like its gonna burst or something. but enough about that. i wanna write something about letting go.

i am a paulo coelho fan. i’ve been trying to collect all of his books eversince i read “the alchemist.” i really can’t collect them in an instant because they cost way too high here in the philippines. so, i bought “the zahir” before, but my copy got lost.:( luckily, someone gave a copy to me as a gift. hehehe.. so i’ve read it twice now and i can’t get a quote from that book out of my mind. and, yeah, it is about letting someone go.

“When someone leaves, it’s because someone else is about to arrive - I’ll find love again.“

Loving someone is not really a lasting thing. in one way or another, one gets tired of the same treatment he/she gets from the person he/she thought can make him/her feel loved. and sometimes, they tend to leave without even saying a word. that is really painful. but in reading “the zahir,” it taught me that when someone we love so much leaves, we just have to accept it and move on. it might be difficult for us to let him/her go, but it reality, we just have to. the feeling we once had with that special person is now a one-way avenue. it can never be reciprocated again. so it is better to move on and let go, rather than staying in self-pity. because after all, we should learn from this mistake. we should look at the positive outcome from a bad experience. and like it says in the book. maybe, it happened, because someone out ther is meant for us. someonewho will love us, cherish us, and make us fall in love with them over and over again. someday, we will be able to find the one who is meant for us. for now, we just hve to wait and see.

The One about waiting…

I WILL WAIT FOR YOU

  This is one from a series of photographs i took for a project in school during first year. we were tasked to do a sort of picture story that is about Literature being seen in our daily lives. i chose the most obvious topic, EVERYTHING.To me, everything is literature, it’s in a matter on how you see things. for instance, this chair, how do you see it? some see it as a chair, some will see it as wood, and some will see it differently. for me, this chair tells a story and a lesson. Lesson about life, about friendship, and about loving.

Some people are fond of waiting. waiting for the bus, the train, the cab, the airplane. waiting for the food orders, the change, or the service. waiting for the truth, thehonesty, and the forgiveness. this chair can represent all, but i see it as a chair for US. A chair set there reserved for us, because God is waiting for us. I wanted this picture to look as if God is the one who took the picture, and we are the ones who he is waiting for. God loves us and He wants to talk to us. He is not a thing that you will just abandon when you get tired of it. He is not a piece of trash that you throw away and forget. but rather, He is precious. He is our Father, our guide. He loved us sio much that God sent His son, Jesus. and Jesus showed us how much God loved us. He died on the cross… for us. He took everything without reclaims. He loved us, as God loves us.

Sometimes we think that we are worthless people because of past relationships, failures, and other things. but in God’s eyes, we are all the same. God doesn’t judge, He doesn’t abandon. Even if you do alot of stupid things, He will be always by your side. waiting for you to reach for His hands and sit with Him, talk to Him. Ifyou feel that the world ison your shoulders, always remember, you can always talk to Him. He’s always in His home, the church, the chapel, your friends, in your heart. God is always there waiting. and if you doubt God’s love for you, just look at the cross. That’s how much God loves you and ready to accept you with arms open wide.

so, find time to visit a chapel, take atleast a minute of your time to sit, be still, open your heart, and let God talk to you. He misses you! He’s there waiting…

The One Where Loving is Unsure.

Ploning

“Hindi ba mas masarap isipin na kaya ikaw ang mas nasasaktan dahil ikaw ang mas nagmamahal?“

Ploning, 2008

 I watched Ploning a while ago and that ine struck me. it’s about loving and hurting. Translating the quotation, it reads, “Isn’t it better to think that you’re getting hurt this much because you’re the one who’s loving more?” Ploning is such a great movie. even though the cinematography is not that well shot, there are a lot of things that we can learn from this movie. i’d like to share an entry from http://oggsmoggs.blogspot.com/

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Ploning (Dante Nico Garcia, 2008)
Ploning, a Cuyonon folk song, is essentially a plea from a boy to her lover for the latter to wait for him and remember him as he leaves her for a different land. The final verses of the song bare the boy’s wish that the girl keep a stone wrapped with her handkerchief, as reminder that his love for her is undying. It’s a lovely song, with a melody that encapsulates the emotional longing that the lack of physical intimacy emboldens. Slow, passionate, and moody, the song functions as both a narrative precursor and musical anthem of Dante Nico Garcia’s film with the same title.

Ploning (Judy Ann Santos) is a Cuyonon native who is patiently waiting for the return of Tomas, her boyfriend who journeyed to Manila a few years back and hasn’t returned yet. Surrounding Ploning is a variety of women who possess a similar emptiness: Celeste (Mylene Dizon), a city nurse who travels to Cuyo Island and finds there the missing aspect in her life; Alma (Meryll Soriano), a housewife whose only companion is the radio because her husband is working elsewhere; Nieves (Ces Quesada), a happily-married woman who is worried over her son’s lofty ambitions for himself.

Most important in Ploning’s life is Digo (Cedric Amit), a young boy who fancies Ploning as his surrogate mother since his real mother (Eugene Domingo) is permanently disabled. A few days before the town fiesta, Ploning’s plan of journeying to Manila to look for Tomas becomes known to the people around her, causing everyone to examine the inherent value of love, pain, and waiting. Shielded from the normal worries and heartaches of most adults by his age, Digo is the most affected of Ploning’s planned departure, forcing him to wrestle with those surging emotions using only his meager view on things.

Shot entirely in Cuyo Island, Ploning makes use of the picturesque vistas, the gorgeous beaches, and the vibrant town proper to great extent. Instead of merely showcasing the beauty of the island as a mere adjunct of the film or a come-on to possible tourists, the visual splendor actually complements the entire spectrum of emotions that the film manages to impart. Cinematographer Charlie Peralta was able to not only make gorgeous visuals, he also impregnated the beauty with melancholy, simple joys, sorrow, hope, and other feelings that the film so fluently speaks with.

The entire cast also effortlessly delivers the myriad of emotions that their characters require. Santos, who is more popular for acting in mainstream romantic comedies or weepy melodramas, was able to showcase restraint that the role requires. While Santos is tremendously effective as the titular character, a bigger amount of satisfaction is derived from the performances of those supporting her, more particularly Soriano who injected her character with a believable mix of simplicity and sincerity, Ronnie Lazaro who for less than five minutes was able to capture the extreme joy of being reunited with someone he has waited for almost hopelessly, Gina Pareño who portrays Tomas’ mother Intang who in one scene literally explodes in fury and frustration for being betrayed by God, Spanky Manikan who injects pathos to the character of a Taiwanese fisherman who got attached to Digo for several years but is about to part with him, and Tessie Tomas who flawlessly captures the personality of someone who was bred in the city but has found serenity in the island.

The film basically hinges on Ploning’s promise to wait, based predominantly on love. In one scene, Ploning placates Siloy (Lucas Agustin), the heartbroken son of Nieves, by lecturing to him about the intricacies of loving. She proclaims that pain accompanies real love, and the person who gets most hurt in a relationship is the one who loved the most. In a sense, the film approximates the folk song’s view about love; that real love is essentially a prison that is blind to time, pain and suffering and that the feeling of love is entirely separate from desire. Ploning becomes the icon of this kind of love, a perpetually suffering and patient woman who stands by a promise of eternal love no matter how painful it becomes. The paradox of this view about love is that it partakes a semblance of womanly virtue, as expressed by Ploning’s suffering friends.

Ploning is old-fashioned in its depiction of love yet despite that, it is adamantly satisfying since it not only pictures the emotion in its purest and uncompromising sense but also fathoms other aspects of rural life that rarely gets treatment this sincere and beautiful. It meditates on death with unflinching yet purposeful frankness. It lovingly touches on the reconciliation between a father and his once-disobedient daughter. It is this unwavering mix of subtlety and expressiveness that makes Ploning so endearing. It is unabashed in its sentimentality simply because it is as graceful and lyrical as a heartfelt love song. 

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Try watching it, so you’ll see what i and oggsmoggs mean.

God Bless!

Droplets

 Have you ever felt like this?

Loving someone but you know you two can’t be together. You thought everything will go well between the two of yo but it all went to nothing. You thought loving him/her was all you had to do to be loved back, but it doesn’t seem that way anymore. So instead of staying by the person you love, you leave and planned to start a new life. But when youthought that you’d gotten over him.her, there’s this little something that seemed to free itself from your mind. This little fragment, a memory of the person you love, and everything comes back to you. You remember him/her and it’s harder for you to move on. Loving someone leaves a mark in our hearts that we just wish to fade away so that we can go and move on, but we know that only time can heal these marks. But sometimes, we just have to bear the pain, knowing that someday we will move on, and we will eventually be happy again.

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 This song is called “Droplets” and it is sung by Colbie Caillat and Jason Reeves.

 Try to feel the emotion of the song, and concentrate on the lyrics. It is such a nice song and hopefully, Colbie and Jason will release an album together. (Lyrics after the video)

 Droplets

Jason Reeves and Colbie Caillat ( )

(I’m leaving you)(I’m not sure if that’s what I should do)(It hurts so bad)
(I’m wanting you but cant go back)
(Trying to find, to find)
(That all elusive piece of mind)
(Stuck here somehow)
(Shrouded beneath my fear)
(And now I don’t need it)

(Cuz I’m walkin down this road alone and figured all I’m thinking bout is you, is you my love)
(And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and i’m just waiting for)
(The droplets, droplets)

You left a mark
I wear it proudly on my chest
Above my heart (Above my heart)
To Remind me that I feel the best
When I’m with you (When I’m with you)
To me everything is effortless
You know its true
My eyes are painted with regret and I don’t need it

Cuz I’m walkin down this road alone and figured all I’m thinking bout is you, is you my love
And my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and I’m just waiting to fall and sink into your tears

You are like the raindrops, the raindrops falling down on me

You left a mark (you left a mark)
She left a mark (he left)
She left (he left)
And I don’t (I don’t)
Need it. (Need it) 

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have a great day guys!:) a day left before school starts.:D God Bless, and continue to love whatever happens.:)

Welcome 2009!:D

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009!:D

 2008 has been a very rough year for me. A lot of things happened that didn’t really fall into place. There were problems that, at first, i couldn’t handle but eventually i did. So i would want to thank everyone who became part of my 2008 (list will follow on another post.:D) there might have been rough times but still we managed to have fun and look on the brighter side of life.

 so, a run down on my 2008!

April, i enrolled in summer classes taking up Comparative Anatomy. yep, i failed that course! such a loser! ahahaha… instead of wallowing in dismay and hatred, i enrolled and i did not regret my decision. i met new friends and i learned a lot from them. Being able to be yourself in front of other people makes you feel good. and that’s what i learned, BE YOURSELF! don’t let others influence youeasily. learn to trust yourself in anything that you will do. Thanks CompaMates!!:D

So, 2008 is a new start for me because i became a Sophomore Physical Therapy student. it was really hard because we know the fact that we will be arranged alphabetical and the block i had during my freshman year had that bond already. we learned to accept everyone’s differences and it made us stronger. being in a new class with different people is a new start. adjusting, meeting new people, and hoping to find new friends. that’s what we had to face. meeting 2PTA made me feel a bit uneasy. seeing these people made me feel all tensed and inferior. the people in 2PTA all strived for excellence (which i rarely do, btw. hehehe). but after months of being with them, i finally saw that, hey! we could get along. but still, you can’t really forget that bond you formed before. I realized that we need CHANGE once in a while. and 2PTA is that change. 2PTA, thank you so much for adding color and life to my 2008! you guys rock! hope we’ll have bonding sessions soon!!:D see you guys in 4 days?:P

2008 was also a stressful and hectic year for me! hahahaha… howyes it is! being part of the Mr. and Ms. Rehabilitation Sciences 2008 made me realize that i am a responsible and hardworking person. meeting new people from every batch was a real experience. Documentations Committee, that’s what i am part of. my partner and i had to fix things, arrange questions, contact the models (sometimes), take photographs, take videos, make presentations, make designs for tarps, tickets, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. *catches breath* that’s what we do in that committee! and i loved it!:D Another was i entered a t-shirt design making contest  for the College Shirt and Physical Therapy Society Shirt. at first i thought, ‘ok, i’ll enter it for fun.’ but after i was announced the winner. i was like WTH? and it all started there. hahahaha. SC texting, meeting, edit, edit, edit, meeting, texting, edit. PTSoc texting, edit, edit, edit. *catches breath* edit, and more edit, and finally, they released it during the College Week! (was fun, btw!) but after all these, it made me think that ‘hey, you did it! you designed these shirts. even if it was stressful, you had fun! right?’ and i sure did! Sometimes we need to look things in another perspective. it maybe stressful, but still you had fun!:D MMRS08, CRS-SC, PTSoc! thanks for stressing me out! it made me a better person, i learned a lot of things from it! (i’m not being sarcastic, mind you.:D) thanks again!:D PS. CRS-SC and PTSoc: where’s my prize?>.<

 oh yeah! i started dorming this year!:D it was fun! being independet for once!:D but still, there’s no place like home!:D Dorming made me a better person. how? i became more RESPONSIBLE. waking-up on my own, buying food and groceries (sometimes my mom bring us foodies!:D) and a lot more. and yeah! i made new friends at the dorm! and it was fun!:D hahahaha… staying up late at the dorm lobby to study, hearing the busy streets of manila and bursting sounds from an ambulanceor a fire truck. oh the life!:D

 another thing, my 20th Birthday this year was hella fun! (yep, i turned 20… awww..:( good bye teenage years!>.<) it was our final exams and i called yellowcab pizza to deliver 2 boxes for my friends to eat!:D well, i planned it was only to eat and have bondong moment with my previous blockmates but no! they had a surprise for me! *awww* they bought me 2 cakes! one for the ‘2′ and another for the ‘0′… sweet, right?:D that’s what i like about unoPTC!:D they will really make you feel loved and accepted!:D unoPTC, you guys rock! thanks for another year of friendship!:D *big hug*…:D

well, i guess i’ll end here. i don’t want it to be super duper long so might as well cut it here!:D anyway i would like to thank Father God for giving me another year. 2008 was great and i hope 2009 will be greater!:D hahahaha… THANKS EVERYONE!:D I LOVE YOU ALL!:D hehehe..

have a blessed and fruitful 2009!:D

PS. Welcome to my new blog!:D